Hard days

I havent wrote for a few days due to things have been pretty challenging. In the last few days I have hardly had time to sit and ponder by myself. Brayden has been in EVERYTHING, it seems like when I say not to do something, he is in something else he shouldnt be. Ella has had to be held a lot lately, and her reflex has become worse between 5pm and 9pm every night. She screams the whole time and arches her back. I feel bad for the pain shes in, I emailed the doctor this morning to see what we do next. I am hoping an increase of Zantac or a different medication to make her feel better. On a good note we finally got a double stroller, I am very grateful to the family that gave it to us. I now have away to get to all the doctor appointments for Ella and I, without worrying how I am going to carry them both. We planned on having our children this close, but never realized how hard it was going to be with them so close in age. Its a lot like having twins. They both have to be held at the same time, a child in each arm. I would never change it for the world though. They are so precious and they are such a joy. They both have brought so much happiness in my life. It has been a joy having a step daughter also. She has been a major help with the kids. I am thankful for her also.