The road we are traveling....

The road isn't getting easier in fact its getting harder. The more time that passes by that our sweet baby isn't here in our arms the harder things get for us. All we pray for everyday is for things to go back to the way they were. Life is not the same without her. Her beautiful smile and precious blue eyes having fun with her sister and brothers. Her coming up to daddy as he walked in the door after a long day at work wrapping her arms around him. Ella would wake up in the mornings with a big smile on her face, so happy to wake up next to us. It just doesn't seem possible that she is gone. Why would our beautiful girl be taken from us? She was so happy and content. She was so loved and cared for. The sadness of her being taken from us is never going to fade. We go about our days as if we are okay, but we are not okay. When we have to have connection with people they can see on the outside that we may be coping but they don't see the inside of us and how hurt we are. Our kids are starting to feel the loss of Ella a lot lately. Ella wouldn't want us to be this way, she would want us to think of her often and know that she is okay. We just don't know how to live without her by us. Come visit us in our dreams Ella, We need to know you are okay.